Chapter 1: The Rollercoaster of Emotions

Life has been incredibly hectic lately. My emotions feel like they are on a wild rollercoaster, and restful sleep seems to be a distant memory. I can hardly anticipate how I’ll feel in the next hour. It’s nearly 1 AM, and despite needing to work in the morning, here I am, pouring my thoughts onto the screen because sleep has chosen to evade me.

Midnight reflections are rarely kind, often dragging me back through every poor choice I've made. As I sift through each experience, I find it remarkable that my heart still functions—not in the literal sense, but in its ability to feel. I still care for others, yearn to help, and maintain my faith in humanity. At times, I question my own judgment; how much betrayal must I endure before I finally wake up? Yet, I ponder whether I truly want to change.

Being this way is intrinsic to who I am. If I alter how I perceive or feel about others, am I merely transforming my essence? Why should I stop being kind? In the past, I convinced myself that everyone was out to hurt me, leading me to isolate myself and lose my happiness. What terrifies me now is the contemplation of reverting to that mindset. Am I losing my sanity?

My mother has expressed concern lately, as I find myself approaching her with questions about my mental state. For weeks, I became so resolute in suppressing my emotions that during shocking moments, I found myself nonchalantly watching videos and laughing as if nothing had happened. Despite being one of the most sensitive people I know, witnessing my own emotional detachment frightened me.

However, after several days of introspection, listening to poignant songs, and shedding tears, my heart returned to its true self. While others worried about my sadness, I felt relieved because I wasn’t numb. To feel is one of life's most precious gifts. As much as I aspire to be resilient constantly, those weeks of emotional stubbornness taught me a valuable lesson: I never want to become that person.

Feeling is what defines us as human beings. I may appear naive, but I harbor no regrets. I am emotional, I believe in second chances, I trust others, and I willingly extend my hand to help. Regardless of what unfolds, I will remain true to this aspect of myself because it is who I am.

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Chapter 2: Insights on Healing

In the video "How to Fix a Broken Heart" featuring Guy Winch and Lewis Howes, the speakers delve into strategies for healing from emotional pain. They offer practical advice on navigating heartbreak and rebuilding trust in oneself and others.

The second video, "If You're HEARTBROKEN & Can't MOVE ON - WATCH THIS" by Jay Shetty, provides insightful perspectives on moving forward after heartache. Jay emphasizes the importance of self-care and understanding one's emotions during the healing process.